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An over thinkers guide to life, Puggles, family and so much more

Overthinking is a nightmare. Due to a back operation I have too much time on my hands and too much time to think. This is how I deal with it and survive

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Daily update – well maybe not daily recently



It’s a bit of a bribe as I have neglected you. So I have posted a cute picture of Bella our beautiful puppy to win you round. I have had a busy few weeks. I have been busy with the pups and trying to get my candle business up and running. I have also been useless with my diet. I have slightly lost weight but not through dieting but though being back at work and busy.

I have sold lots of candles but mainly to people who I know. Through work and Facebook. I made loads of candles on Saturday and spent all day sorting them out and packaging them up. I had a bright idea to do a car boot sale. We made a profit after paying for the stall but it was about £4.00. For 4 hours work so approximately 50 pence an hour. We also got next to the most annoying person in the world. He never shut up all the time. We were ready to murder someone by the end of it. So that’s it for car boot sales. I have now signed up for some craft sales and hope we will do better. I did manage to sell a heart candle though and had plenty of positive comments.

My diet has been terrible I haven’t tried one bit. I have been back to the specialist today and he has said an operation won’t help me. He has referred me to pain management and physio. I have decided I need to get fit by walking the dogs and trying to build my back up again. I think that’s the only way i can be pain free. I do have carpal tunnel syndrome in my hands he offered to operate but I decided to bear with it as I won’t be able to use my hands for 2 weeks and I can’t spare the time off work.

I feel good that I don’t need an op. Money is tight though at the moment and we have nearly two weeks till my boyfriend gets paid. My daughter has been back with us for a month now and her dad won’t pay me anything. He has even gone on holiday for a week. It gets me furious as she still adored him and can’t see no wrong. We are trying to do what we can but it’s going to be a struggle, but isn’t every month. I hope one day my daughter realises what a dick he is.

I promise I am going to be a better blogger !!!!! See you tomorrow xxxx

I think every parent goes through this

I do not like to brag

Sometimes I can do it without even saying hello. I do it by even walking in a room with the wrong look on my face

life was so much better in the 1990’s

I was a clubber in my years and in the late 1980’s and early 1990’s I attended many warehouse parties. These parties were illegal but whe you were 18 you didn’t care. We had the time of our life. I don’t think the youth of today have a clue and my children certainly don’t and think that I have always been boring. Little do they know

She couldn’t be arsed


Daily diary-I feel the world is out to get me or am I just tired ?


Today I feel the world is out to get me. I am being hyper sensitive due to tiredness or are people just being arseholes today ? I think it’s the later.  I asked my boss a question today about £27 a client owed us and could I transfer it over to another matter we had for them.  He said “and why are you asking”.  I said “cause you are my boss” he said “you have just wasted £27 of my time.  I walked out of his room and muttered arsehole under my breath.

This afternoon my parents took me for my mri scan.  I needed another one as my right side is worse after my operation. My mum was on one when I got in the car,started discussing the puppies and saying I really couldn’t afford to keep one.  It upset me as I feel that I have raised these puppies and I won’t be having them again so would love something that is part of both lily and Bailey. They are both characters and a puppies of theirs is bound to be amazing,

I cant believe it’s been a week since they were born. Thus time last week lily had rejected them.  Now she is the best mum ever.  The puppies have grown so much and have nearly doubled their birth weight,  which is how they should be.  I am so proud of what we have achieved.  It’s been hard going and we are sleep deprived.

My son had a girl to the house for the afternoon. I wa allowed to talk to her and even give her a lift home, which is a massive achievement as in the past I couldn’t even say hello.  I made a nice leak and potato bake for tea.  He wanted super noodles for him and his “friend”.  I don’t know what you call them these days as after a few dates you arent automatically a girlfriend like you used to be.  You have to be asked and usually that’s a few months down the line.  I think they are “ talking”. Anyway I am sure she would have preferred by bake buy my son could live off super noodles,

i am off to check on the puppies.

Good night xxx

Your job isn’t to be liked

Daily diary – it’s more tiring than having a new born baby



We are shattered.  It’s been feeds every 3 hours.  It’s more tiring than raising a new born baby.  The only difference is we have 3  to look after.  We have had a major break through.  We held lily and she fed her babies.  During the course of the night and day she became more relaxed.  We muzzled her and we let he sniff the babies and then tonight we took the muzzle off.  We were very close by in case she tried to bite then  but her mothering instinct set in and she licked them and cleaned there bottoms.  It was amazing and I hope that she now looks after them.  I always new she would be a good mum.  So fingers crossed.

The shopping fairies have been today.  We did an online order and we have full fridge and cupboards.  I love it.  I have mentioned before I think I have full cupboard syndrome.  I hate it when the food is eaten,  The only difference is I have bought a load of fruit as I need to loose weight as I feel fat.  Being off work and eating shit has Made me put on a few pounds.  I have weight issues as when I was 13 I had anorexia.  So I am going to try and eat fruit and not eat chocolate and crisps.  It’s very difficult as my boyfriend and son are gannets and eat  nothing healthy.  I have just got the cherries out and my boyfriend reached for the chocolate.   Very supportive.  Not.  I will let you know how I go on.

I haven’t seen my son all night.  There has been a big fight tonight the fight of the century.  Two you tubers.  I have been told.  I must be getting too old as I hadn’t a clue.  My 73 year old Dad even knew.  My daughter loved the festival and managed to get back in one piece thank goodness.

I am going now as I am shattered and we have an hour and a half to thr next feed.  I feel so relieved that lily is finally being a mother.

Ps,  I am going to keep a puppy.  My boyfriend says no but we are keeping one.  Watch this space.

Daily diary – I have spent most of the day being weed and pooed on



The pictures above are one of the beautiful puppies. We have a runt and this is the runt. He is my favourite. I am still hoping to be able to keep one. I have spent most of the day getting weed and pooed on. They do after every feed which is every 3 hours at the moment. I do not mind as it’s only puppy poo.

I feel like i have gone back in time by 15 years and it’s like raising a baby but we have 3 to feed. The night feeds are getting to me. Glad it’s the bank holiday so my boyfriend is home to help.

The puppies are doing well but I am not counting my chickings. I will write a how to bottle feed a puppy post if and when the puppies survive.

My daughter has gone to celebrate her exam results to day by going to a music festival. She has made her way there with her friends and is only staying for the day but I am still worried. I have given her the dos and dont’s the main one is don’t fall out with your friends and wander off on your own.

l love music festivals and have been to a number over the years and taken my children to one a few years ago. I hope this will help her know what to do.

I am going to rest as it will be feed time soon. I think I have just persuaded my boyfriend to keep a puppy. As we are bottle feeding them I feel attached to them. I also am only letting the puppies go to friends so we can see how they are and have updates.


Daily diary – is tonight the night?


Still no puppies but is tonight the night? Lily has been behaving strangely.  She is restless and keeps panting.  I don’t know if this is the start of labour or not.  She has also been digging in her bed.  We have looked this up on the internet.  It seems like it’s a sign.  We hope it is as this pregancy is taking too long and we are impatient for the puppies.  We will update you as soon as we have some news.

My daughter gets her exam results on Thursday and she has asked me to go with her to pick them up.  I am really pleased as I want to share this moment with her. I have told her not to worry about her results.  I came out of school with one o’level.  That was what it was called when I was at school.i had to retake my exams and it put me a year behind at college but I made new friends,  if she doesn’t pass her exams there is no issue and we will deal with it.

we have been out to dinner to day me, my son and my daughter.  It was nice and we see: to be getting on better.  For the moment though.  I am just going to take every day as it come now and have no expectations.

Right i am  off to bed. Goodnight xxxxx hopefully we will have good news next time we speak

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