I have spent many years being afraid. If you have had a run of bad luck you tend to be very pessimistic and wait for the next thing to go wrong. By doing this you ruin your life and develop a kind of depression. My doctor once asked me why I did this and I said if I got too happy I wouldn’t be prepared. He said will you feel any better by the event if you have prepared yourself and I said no. He said don’t ruin your life. Enjoy it and live it. I now have changed my attitude