59E4C040-8524-4BBA-AB11-751F5EA8DC1EI am back at work tomorrow ekkkkk. I think I have now resigned myself to this.  There is going to be no big lottery win.  I have to now jump back on the tread wheel with the masses.  My work is very stressful but there is more to life than work.  Being off so long has made me realise that the most important thing in my life is my family and spending time with them.  I am very fortunate for what I have.  I work to live I don’t live to work.

I have so much to look forward to including the birth of the puppies.  I am also hopeful,that I will build up my relationship with my daughter.  I don’t think we will do just use, but I think over time there is a possibility.  I actually feel very positive about the future,  I have a lovely boyfriend who cares very deeply about me and I believe we have a great future together.

I need to get  a routine back into my life and I hope the operation has worked.  I am not entirely sure as I still have a lot of pain in my right side.  If it hasn’t I will deal with it.  I was deeply affected by narcissistic abuse and I now have a great life and I will not let it affect m anymore,  I am very positive about the future.

I will tell you ho the first day goes tomorrow.  I hope my positive attitude continues.

Until tomorrow I will chill with my dogs