Month: October 2018 (Page 1 of 3)
I have been very quiet on here lately, but it’s not been quiet at home. My daughter came back a month ago. After a fall out it’s her dad. She accused him of hitting her and I don’t doubt her one bit. That’s what he does. She was lovely for a while but the old traits have started to return. I have also been having a battle with him about money. He won’t give me any. So been struggling this month.
It all come to a head on Thursday my daughter and her brother ended up fighting. She had been particularly nasty and doesn’t have any qualms about calling me a fat bitch or a slag. My son was sticking up for me which he does. Anyway she ended up kicking me across the room. I asked her dad to pick her up and he refused and he told me to call the police which I did. The police man spoke to her and she was crying. I told him I didn’t want to press charges and hoped the taking too had made her realise she can’t behave like that. I know she has learnt her abusive behaviour from her dad, but she is 16 and it isn’t an excuse. After then police man had gone she apologised, but didn’t mean it and carried on being the same.
Friday she was ok, she cleaned up and I thought maybe she it had sunk in, yesterday she woke up in a bad mood. Her dad had lied to her and said he didn’t tell he me to call the police. It was a down right lie and some how she has believed it. It frustrates me that no matter what happens her Dad is wonderful in her eyes and can’t do wrong. He may hit her but she forgets it. He is a horrible person and in a way I can understand this. I lived with years of abuse and he convinced me it was me who was wrong not him. He messed with my mind and by the end of our relationship I didn’t know what what’s going on. I needed years of therapy to live a normal life. I have tried to help her. Take her to the doctor but she says that there is nothing wrong with her. I think she has learned his narcissistic ways and uses them on me. As that’s what he does. It’s so sad but I am at a loss what to do.
She was plain nasty yesterday she got into another fight with her brother and because I didn’t stick up for her she called me a fat bitch and a slag. I told her to go to her Dads and move off the settee she wouldn’t listen. So we went out to a friends. I decided I wouldn’t speak to her when I got back as I am sick of the abuse. She tried to act like nothing had happened, but the name calling and abuse is too much to put up with. She had fallen out with her dad too but by the end of it she told him what he wanted to hear and he transferred some money into her account. She told him she will live half and half at our houses. So he doesn’t need to pay me anything. I saw the text and I am furious as she knows how I struggle. They are both stupid as my son lives with me and he is supposed to pay for him !!! I will save that battle for another day. I am tired and sick of it all.
Today I am taking no shit off anyone.
It’s a bit of a bribe as I have neglected you. So I have posted a cute picture of Bella our beautiful puppy to win you round. I have had a busy few weeks. I have been busy with the pups and trying to get my candle business up and running. I have also been useless with my diet. I have slightly lost weight but not through dieting but though being back at work and busy.
I have sold lots of candles but mainly to people who I know. Through work and Facebook. I made loads of candles on Saturday and spent all day sorting them out and packaging them up. I had a bright idea to do a car boot sale. We made a profit after paying for the stall but it was about £4.00. For 4 hours work so approximately 50 pence an hour. We also got next to the most annoying person in the world. He never shut up all the time. We were ready to murder someone by the end of it. So that’s it for car boot sales. I have now signed up for some craft sales and hope we will do better. I did manage to sell a heart candle though and had plenty of positive comments.
My diet has been terrible I haven’t tried one bit. I have been back to the specialist today and he has said an operation won’t help me. He has referred me to pain management and physio. I have decided I need to get fit by walking the dogs and trying to build my back up again. I think that’s the only way i can be pain free. I do have carpal tunnel syndrome in my hands he offered to operate but I decided to bear with it as I won’t be able to use my hands for 2 weeks and I can’t spare the time off work.
I feel good that I don’t need an op. Money is tight though at the moment and we have nearly two weeks till my boyfriend gets paid. My daughter has been back with us for a month now and her dad won’t pay me anything. He has even gone on holiday for a week. It gets me furious as she still adored him and can’t see no wrong. We are trying to do what we can but it’s going to be a struggle, but isn’t every month. I hope one day my daughter realises what a dick he is.
I promise I am going to be a better blogger !!!!! See you tomorrow xxxx