Sorry for my miserable diary yesterday. I feel so much better today. I felt down yesterday as I was very upset and disappointed with my daughter. After sleeping on it I can’t let this get me down.
I have my son off school today. He hurt his rib at school yesterday so is resting it today. Although the music is blaring from his room so I think he will be back there tomorrow.
The day has finally arrived I can have a bath. I love baths and I haven’t been able to have one since before my operation. I can’t wait. It’s sad isn’t it but it’s one more stop on the road to recovery.
I got a nice surprise yesterday a got a lovely bunch of flowers from work delivered to my door. Ever since I have been off work I have been overthinking it. Worrying that they were mad cause I was off and even imagined being sacked when I went back. I know that would be illegal to sack me but I couldn’t stop worrying and thinking. Receiving the flowers has calmed my mind a bit. For now anyway,
The bad blood and falling out my daughter has really knocked my confidence for some reason and made me feel very insecure. I have been doubting myself and whether I am to blame for my daughters attitude. My partner and son assure me it’s her and not down to me. I also have needs reassurance in my relationship with my partner. As I am now worrying that he is going to leave me. I know it’s irrational but I can’t stop myself as I feel useless and a terrible mum. Again deep down I know it’s not true but it doesn’t stop me thinking. It doesn’t help having all this time on my hands. That is why writing this blog has been very helpful.
Right I am off now, bye for now and speak tomorrow xxxx